There was no arbitrator
to take the case to review;
the decision rested
with my good will
you were as clear
and unmuddy
as pure water
shadowless
with an unconscious
free of evil
I was the sick one,
had I not come to you
with my sickness
a daydreamer
up in the clouds
fill of false
assumptions
so when we cam to an impasse
and my nightdreams
said nothing
w were left
without a authority
and so
only
I
could make
the decision
to stay or go
while you could only be
ultra-fair
about the matter.